In a day...

so much can unfold.   I had feelings of fear, comfort, worry, peace, and confusion.  It was Tuesday.

I wonder if we realize just how fluid out day goes?  Perhaps we take the dominate emotion or event and judge the day on that one but how much have we lost?

I realize so much of life is blurred and missed.  It is these small moments of peace or of drinking in the orange of a tree in fall, that are compromised for the 'event of the day'.

Yesterday's event was that when I got home around 8pm my son told me that my mother had a small car accident.  She was not hurt but she was in the hospital for observation.  It ends up that her heart enzymes were elevated.  She stressed her heart.

She is getting a cardiac ultrasound this morning and if things look normal, she'll be discharged.

The non-event of the day was that I drove down to the southern part of VT to meet with a friend I met 2 years ago at a women's retreat weekend.  We stay in touch through emails.  We met last October too.
When we meet we talk and talk and boom, 6 hours has passed.  Amazing.

I appreciate her very much.  She was a big help to me during August's crisis.  I find it easy to be open and honest with her.

As I drove home, I thought how lucky am I that we met?    Some relationships in life are effortless.  It is beautiful.  It also reminds me that I don't have to push and cajole anyone to like me, to fit in.

Why don't we realize that the spaces in our life need to be left open.  There is no need to force fill.

Just because there is space doesn't mean that there is anything wrong.  I have very few friends, but none of the friendships I have now, drains me or makes me feel as though I can't be myself.   They are free and easy.  No one needs the other to BE anything other than what we are.

Focusing on the small stuff gives me more peace than I thought possible.  The trees, the moon, the warm sunshine, my cat sleeping all curled up on my bed.   Beauty.